Recovery.

Oh my Lord.  You try and prepare yourself for the recovery process.  You read the horror stories, you know they say it is worse than the disease itself, you know it's like a drug addict withdrawing..but still, there is no preperation.  This is awful.  I am in such pain.  We haven't started my cortisol replacement therapy yet so basically, I have 'bottomed' out cortisol-wise and my body is feeling it. 
The surgery itself was a success so far..very simple, recovered quickly from that part. I still have the stitches up my nose but all the packing is gone and I can smell/taste again.  The tumor was very visable and the consistency of toothpaste according to the surgeon.  I go next Wednesday for my follow-up with him and more details on size/pathology, etc. 
For now, I've just got to get these replacements in order so I can at least walk and function.  I know this is a beginning to an end but geez...this is rough as hell to put it nicely.  Thank goodness I can read the other stories that show it will get better eventually..just gotta press on.  Lord, please help me.